Been away from the computer, TRYING to get my act together. I say trying although I think I need to go back to the dictionary and review the definition of TRYING and then re-check the definition of PROCRASTINATING and see if maybe that’s a better fit for this particular situation. I’m not ready for Christmas and question if I ever will be. Although I did manage to get two packages mailed off yesterday so that was a mini joyful moment to celebrate. Gotta take ‘em as they come. I so want to be the type of person who can just let all the stress go and cherish the moments but my inner anal list maker and dot the i’er and cross the t’er seems to be interfering with that particular want of mine.
I’ve been…
Sick. Sick. Sick. Got a bad cold a few weeks ago and seemed to be recovering well from that only to be side swiped with a bad case of the dizzy’s! UGH! I hate not being able to tell what is connected to the Lupus, what is just pure exhaustion from life, and what is truly just a bug! My head hurts, a severe case of the crankies has set in and I’m just trying to remember to breath. Did get the sinkful of dishes done about an hour ago so that’s a feeling of accomplishment. If I had a list for today, I’d be sure to add dishes just for the pure satisfaction of being able to cross that off! On that note, need to tell you how excited I am for the New Year. It’s like the first day of school for me. I just got my latest issue of Real Simple and it’s an issue completely geared for list-makers like myself! Love it! But I digress…
Wrestling with new behaviors. The Boy Wonder has done a bit of trading on the Black Market as of late. Trading up for amazing academic accomplishments but trading down for negative behaviors of hitting, kicking, and melting down. Autism. One word but sooooo much is contained within those 6 letters. Just when you think you’ve got things in manage mode, along comes the big fat A-word with it’s evil sinister laugh in tow to rip that theory to pieces and give you a new thing to wrap your brain around! Time to pull out my special needs collection of books and figure out what this particular form of “behavior is communication” is trying to tell me! I got a little sumpin’ to tell that behavior, GO AWAY and bring back my sweet little boy! It’s Christmas for crying out loud! AND….our Community Support Worker apparently has a life outside of our home and will be out of town for the next two weeks! (Believe me, the girl has more than earned a little break – she is truly amazing and my personal life saver!) My sanity is about to be truly tested.
In about a half an hour the cherubs will start to roll in, thrilled that they’re on Vacation. I best find myself a new attitude and try to embrace the blessings of Christmas instead of letting my not feeling well take the good out of everything. This is fun, right?! Oh and did I mention we’re about to get dumped with a Nor’easter! Love the teapot!
In case I don’t make it back before the Holidays are officially here, have the merriest of merry’s and the happiest of happy’s. Enjoy this wonderful time of year (I should take my own advice, huh?) and the memories that are just waiting to be made.
Happy Holidays!
Jayne
Did the new behaviors start with the holiday break? My boys get Christmasitis, and all their worst behaviors get magnified with all the free time they suddenly need to occupy.
Hope your cherubs pitch in a bit and help you, in the absence of your CSW and your health. Tell them Santa is watching, so they’d better be good to you.